Exasperating, huh? As writer I'll never be published by money providers, lambasting virtually anyone guilty they're liable for hell. No one will publish me. Reality long before now. Even without nary the thought of reminding people of harsh ramifications for lethargic consciences.

People within publishing going back 36 years allowed me to see to know as I've realized the last year, I've always been blacklisted. Such that heck, I've been literally financially ruined near a year and fondly recall National Enquirer's Mike Hammer in my face saying trust him I'm ruined if I'm not care-taken in my secluded domesticated hovel. Mean look on his face, cause he knew where the work was headed while never revealing to me he knew. My friend Mike Hammer. John Le Carré & Jay B. Gissen grinning NOW!

The night National Enquirer's Hammer's Handler revealed things to me? Hammer was modifying what I was saying, to enforce no one's seeing me intellectually. THOSE people knowing what I didn't. That I really am BLACKLISTED made my proving unworthy of ever paid, irrelevant to HISTORY. My bow NOW. SCREWED defending women. Happens a lot.

I'm only in New York City because I owe Sade Baderinwa. We were curious about each other and went above and beyond reason to ensure we both knew we still care to know if the feelings I found we can have can grow between us.

Or she sends me on my way. I've written everything up. I don't have to give two shits about anything or anyone anymore. I know I proved I tried hard enough. Screw everybody for idolizing pure pieces of shit men. Ruined me, HAPPY DAYS ahead. Thanks for nothing, EVERY GOD DAMN ONE! Your money's been well spent, dressed really well energetically shiftless bums. On three, everyone pound their soullessly exposed shallow Bill Ritter chests.

I don't care. Funny, I never wanted to think HELL's meant for anyone. Then _SShole. Aw, don't be modest. All you are is a FAKE BOW. I like he thinks fate funny. Not a real soul searcher, huh? I didn't find the opportunity that hard realizing.

Take more bows, programmed to believe your own myth's all that matters. No understanding of humility at all you pompous SS garbage. NOW done.

Sade? I can disappear anywhere. Our apart's become last two night's woken by soft nightmares that can only strengthen. I need out-of-here. But in between the crap our eyes sure enjoyed every moment I hope. MY MIND'S EYE STILL DOES. MISS YOU ... ... 😇😍😎

So The New York Times Magazine had a piece on The National Enquirer by a former editor. While it looked enticing in a revealing way, just repeated what's known but important for verifying the wall. When understood his journalism sense wasn't of the team's trade, he was on staff enemy. What's preferred sold is owner Pecker's different. He is not. What Publishers used to get away with was always his stock and trade. But of course grown up with Roy Cohn, whew!

I used to ask a friend if Mike Hammer still thinks I'm mad at him for revealing lies Liz created about me before hammer and cycle published. Motive to deter me is reasonable assumption. The way he looked at me that day said - doesn't matter if lying, this business uses anything. What I knew was that crap haunted behind my back perpetually and LAW and I know a joke. Learned it wasn't my friend Mike Hammer who left, where we were guests, immediately after that.

And Bill Ritter? I still Mike. I know more worthless things about him towards me, and still like him. You Ritter, I DEEPLY HATE YOUR GUTS. The way your arrogance flaunts a no big deal what you're the foundation of walling ABC between me and Baderinwa. YOU SUPREMELY MESSED UP S_ithead! See? Can't end when people are screwed by people as guilty as you.

ABC? GROW UP! !!! !!! !!!

Hey Kathie Lee Gifford, GOD loves EVERYTHING as GOD is everything as we know. Idiotry ABC, at this rate never outliving ostracizing Kathie Lee. Get it! Founded to end monopoly in media and endorsing and managed by scumbaggery. HISTORY known NOW, Bill Ritter's morons! Can't grow up? Whatever. But you BOB IGER BIG MONEY FARM and SUPREME COURT are going to have to go down documented judging me, you _SSholes!

WORSHIP YOUR DEMON IDOLS EVERMORE!

HEY NBC MORNINGS BOUGHT CELEBRITY WITCH! Your whole family, bought celebrity BITCH! Grinning friendliness from the wicked who ruined planet and stood in way of fixing. MORON DADDY's Family stole election in 2000.

GOD Damned BUSH Family WHORES!