
Said writer could have been much more despondent as it gets so very old when everyone's experience seems the self-reaffirmation of how to win in their own eyes, (e.g., Bush above), without facing the ramifications of what life really means to be both right and wrong.
Seven years ago, at that great university, before I went to the private desk to look at the file of my uncle who'd left them his fortune, the archive director asked, "What about Elizabeth?" So I'd told her I didn't answer the home phone to avoid her and only saw her once in twenty-three years because I'd promised my mother to keep in touch with her grandchildren that Elizabeth maneuvered to coerce me to politely see her, as, she was, in my eyes, my mother's daughter. Whereupon she acted as innocent as usual as if whatever happened had been all my fault. It was my fault being not yet fully mature that I'd lost friends and families because mothers had to defend her poor mistreated motherly-ish soul. I'd told the manuscript director, "We'd all loved Elizabeth too much and its now up to me to put her in her place." And how "now I" could "face my uncle" and the director smiled and nodded for me to enter the room and view the record of his career alone. No doubt the men Elizabeth had her affairs with have died, as well, as my wish was shattered to somehow have her see how much revenge I was capable of towards her. Making it publicly clear that not only was it obvious I was manipulated, but most likely everyone she'd ever known. All because she couldn't have the fortune I'm proud wasn't just given to me, that characters in One Fifth would trade their souls for as well. Maybe? She was that shallow.
My father died a month before I turned 12 and my mother two months after my 16th. I remember at age 21, Elizabeth's confidence at feeling how I could be dealt with after my telling her I'd figured out how I'd go about attaining my goals because the newly forming adult had aspired "to save the world" since childhood. Christians were brought against me as the ideas were already planted in their heads about a child's confusion because only Jesus had saved the world and no one wanted to realize the English language consisted of more than one meaning of virtually all its words. People I love(d) died hating me for that woman because she couldn't share motherhood with her mother when it's been made more than obvious, at least to me, that it was really only about the money. A paltry 15 to 30,000, though a fortune a century ago. Even her own children would now admit it if they had to be honest without protecting the feelings of people who'd never concede they'd been deceived by such a charming charlatan.
While the experience is perhaps why I so treasure my blade's sharp incisions into the world's game of politics. An art of attaining a majority of friendly acquaintances who vote, or otherwise revealed as the manipulating of those referendums such that they don't matter. Ba dump bump.
If this has still been confusing? Well I'm only explaining, not twisting reality. If uncomfortable? Hell, Ms. Bushnell had me writhing in discomfort not wanting to feel more of how ruthless people are capable of being and mostly because they just don't know any better. Someday in the words of Crosby, Stills and Nash, written by Graham, we may Teach (Y)Our Children Well because, for sure, from personal experience, exposing them to our successes, faults and failures is exactly why the planet's where we are now. An Earth's that's changing by adapting to us rather than our adaptation to our home.













